Wow life really has taken all sorts of twists and turns lately! So I was meeting with my trainer yesterday (My first REAL day off since the beginning of the year) and we had been talking about my purpose in life… I had been thinking about it all last week and i determined that it is to just help improve the lives of those around me. In any way. The things that I love to talk about the most is fitness and health. I posted a pic on my instagram of me about 3 years ago when I was about 30 something pounds heavier and then one of me more recently where I actually have some muscle and I am getting a little toned. I had so many likes on that pic, probably the most ever! Well then I got into a discussion with a friend about what I did to lose the weight and I told her it is mostly just eating and told her I found some recipes that are good or you and actually TASTE good! She asked me to send them to her and then I had a few others ask for them as well. That’s when it hit me. I should be doing what I can to improve lives I come in contact with either mentally, physically or spiritually, etc. Well as I am telling The Trainer about it, he was like “Well Manda, have you thought about doing personal training?” and I told him I had thought about it, but I just wasn’t sure if I could do it. Well I just kept thinking about it and after googling info that made no sense or wanted me to go to a school that would cost me out my nose to get certified I decided to just text the Trainer to ask how he did it and the first thing I got back was “Amanda I have been waiting for you to ask this since yesterday!” Better late than never no? haha Well he referred me to the program he recommends and is preferred when being hired by either of the gyms at which he is the head trainer. He even offered to set me up with some job shadowing. I think I will take him up on that!
I went to dinner with Arizona last night… I thought for sure that’s all it would be. I am really just not sure how to take him. We paid for ourselves and then we chatted for awhile and I was trying really hard to act normal, but I mean I broke it off with him and ran as fast as I could in the other direction, but that apology brought soooo much back. So it was music to my ears to hear, “well what now?” He wasn’t done hanging out with me, So we went and got a movie and cuddled. he was more there than he had been previously. Then we got into this tickling fight after the movie and to get him back I licked him (this is something we used to do to each other a lot, I know we are weird) and then the fight became that and then at one point I to lick him and he just kissed me. Then it was like we just couldn’t stop for a second… It was nice.
Well then he was saying how late it was getting and that I should probably go… then he leaned in and told me it wasn’t because he WANTED me to go, it was because we both had to work the next day. Then he used to just say bye to me at the door, but last night he walked me out to my car, kissed me goodbye and told me to text him when I got home. When I did he told me he was glad I was safe. He had never done that before. Now I am wishing we hadn’t kissed again already… we were going to try to slow down, but all we really did was pick up where we left off. Then with no communication today, I’m really kinda nervous…. ugh! Curse my feelings for him!